Click off now if you do not want to read my misery as I cannot think very positively right now.
I wasn't going to post at all today but looking through all the lovely blogs and knowing that I wont be able to get through them all as I am just too sad has made me even sadder.
I am usually such a positive person and battle all the woes as best I can but the sadness has won today and when I finish this little bloggy moan I am going to sit, cry, light a cigarette and wish I had the biggest bar of chocolate ever!
I am at present locked in my home! Yes! Locked in! This is the final straw for me as I am exhausted and can't face any more stress! So December is a busy month for everyone especially those of us who have childrens Birthdays too. I have been ever so busy lately, and even busier with people putting orders in with me. I have given myself a pat on the back here and there for being organised and not letting all the struggles we have had of late bring me down. So today started bright and breezy, take children to school, scream at them to 'wait at the road', 'put your hat ON RIGHT NOW!'. Then it was into the kiosk...new people wanting to come and volunteer(can't even begin to go there on that one...lets just say hard work and leave it at that), pick kids up take them back to the kiosk, I continue working whilst they have their taekwondo lesson(Biggest bug is doing well this week and looking good for his grading...= more money!), pack kiosk up scream at kids to 'GET DRESSED PROPERLY','STOP RUNNING THROUGH THE SNOW IN YOUR PARTY CLOTHES!!!'(Yes we had snow and I was going to write a lovely blog about it! Oh well!) Head over to a friends childs Birthday party, sit face painting for 3 hours until finally it is time to go home.
All the way home I am thinking about warm snuggly pyjamas, hot chocolates, my lovely blogging time etc. Get home put key in door, turn handle...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Handle literally breaks in my hand! No open door!!! Just me and the 3 bugs stood outside in the freezing cold! Phone is inside the house as I had forgotten it this morning...I quickly headed to the neighbours house, who broke in through the upstairs back door, I used their phone to call my husband who had to come home. By the time they had finished my door lock was completely bent! They actually had to bend the door the wrong way to get us in! My double-glazed £1100 door was bent! I was almost in tears at this point...I hated parting with cash the first time for double glazing so I really don't want to do it a second! Then it had to be locked up and sealed for our own security
My husband has not had even half of his normal wage in total for the last 2 months and the first Bugs Birthday is next week. I have too many things to do and not enough time as it is and now I am going to lose even more time trying to sort it out :(
I am so very, very sad I cannot tell you. I really need a holiday.
I am so sorry to be so miserable, especially this close to Christmas but I had to write it down to try and get some of the frustration out so that it doesn't completely eat away at me.
I will be back to normal soon and can't wait for a peaceful 5 minutes to come and relax with all your wonderful Christmassy blogs and share some of my nicer news. For now though I am going to click the kettle on, cry, try and pick a good film(Maybe Uncle Buck again, or Delirious), or boxset(times like this call for Black adder or Family Guy), cry some more, eat the last quarter of week old maderia cake(the only sweet treat in the house) and get warm and snuggly with my big fluffy dressing gown.